Memories With That One Special Person Magically Revived

Just like television shows and films, music makes a huge impact on my life. Being 19 years old, many people will assume I'll go for a song more modern and up to date. But think again. In the spirit of #GrammysWeek I'm going to dig up an old classic to run through and why it has a special connection living inside me - 'Angels' by Robbie Williams.

'Angels' was released as a single on December 1st 1997 making it 20 years old this year. The single became Robbie Williams' biggest selling single and was voted the best song of the past 25 years at the 2005 Brit Awards.

That Special Connection: 1997-2004

Myself was born on 13th September 1997 (so just a few months before the song was released) and this gave my Nan a third grandchild; the favourite of course. During the years I was growing up it became obvious that my Nan was going to be that one special person in my life that I could always rely and count on, and it was proved to be true.

During my childhood days I always used to spend days out with my Nan and Granddad. Whether it was a trip to a castle, an ice cream by the sea or a windy ride down the train line to somewhere new to collect new memories. It was fun for the whole family.

As time rapidly progressed on, the days out had to tragically come to a halt when I was told my Nan suddenly became ill. This of course became a concern for the family. On the 8th June 2004 she sadly grew her wings and was taken up to Nanny heaven where should be looked after. That's when things got emotional...

The Special Connection: 2004-Present

I remember the nights after she passed away breaking down on my bed screaming "I want Nanny back!" despite being told many times that she couldn't come back, which I knew. What I also knew on those emotional nights was that every night she would be shining bright in the sky resembling a star, and she still does. I used to crawl to the end of the bed to gaze up into the sky just to wave to her.

Today I make sure that 'Angels' by Robbie Williams is in my playlist everyday to university where I can relive those special days. 'Angels' was and probably still is (in Nanny heaven) her favourite song of all time. The lyrics within the song are so powerful I can't stop my little brain from having flashbacks every time I hear the song. The lyrics send me into deep thoughts where I know I can picture those amazing times we had together. It's almost like Robbie Williams is causing a film montage in my mind which helps me get through day after day, hour after hour until I realise that I need to do what's right.

"When I'm feeling weak, and my pain walks down a one way street, I look above, and I know I'll always be blessed with love, and as the feeling grows, she breathes flesh to my bones, and when love is dead, I'm loving angels instead."

That entire paragraph sums up the days that I encounter throughout life. Whenever I'm feeling weak I for sure think to myself "Nan wouldn't want this. She'd be telling me off for this. Sort yourself out Lewis." As the song comes to end you I realise how much impact those memories made in my life, and that is shown by a single tear racing down my face.

Who would have thought that a song could revive a person mentally? However odd it sounds, 'Angels' by Robbie Williams is my greatest memory of my Nan as it creates a short (and emotional) film of the brilliant life she had. If I had a huge amount of photos and videos of our special moments, I'd for sure recreate the music video to the song.