Merjaunie Lena
Bio
I write to express, and clear my head, it's my therapy.
It's not perfect, but nothing is
Being able to vent without a filter is the best way to go.
I am not a professional writer
Check it out 👇🏻
Stories (24/0)
Aloha from Kona
The time has finally come as I was about to land on Kona, the pilot saying " we are about to descend please fasten your seatbelts". This was it the moment I had been waiting for since last year when my cousin and I planned this trip. My stomach getting butterflies as if I was going to vomit, I was so anxious but so excited to finally land. To see my cousin who had flew in from Oregon, and my aunt who lives there. It was my first time ever being to Hawaii, and I could not wait to see the Island.
By Merjaunie Lenaabout 22 hours ago in Wander
I forgive you
People say to forgive those who hurt you, but do you ever wonder why everyone says this? Did it ever come across your mind that the reason may be because it's to heavy to carry around that weight of being an unforgiving person? Or seeing that person or persons who have did you wrong in the past, and when you see them you just get mad. It gets heavy let me tell you to carry that grudge around if you ask me. At the end of the day the best thing to do is forgive those who hurt you because at the end of the day it's them you should feel sorry about.
By Merjaunie Lenaa day ago in Confessions
Stereotypes
When you think of someone who is experiencing homelessness tell me what it is exactly you think of. If you said someone who is a drug addict, or someone who is lazy, or an alcoholic then you've come to the right story. All those things you just thought about when thinking of a homeless person is called stereotyping. For someone who has been working in an environment with homeless people I don't think like that anymore. I used to stereotype homeless people into those specific categories as well. But once I started working in a homeless community environment I stopped because it really opened up my eyes and my heart.
By Merjaunie Lenaabout a month ago in Humans
- Top Story - April 2024
Sabotage Top Story - April 2024
Lately I’ve been in a funk where everything can be going right. You know I’m in a happy place talking to who knows, I’m at peace and feel like everything is just going great you know. But once I start seeing that everything is going great for some reason I need to sabotage it. I need to sabotage my happiness and what I have going on in my life so no one else is able to do it for me. Does that make sense? Am I the only one who gets this way?
By Merjaunie Lenaabout a month ago in Journal
Resentment
Sitting here thinking of how many times I was treated poorly. Thinking of how many times I trusted, how many times my heart always thought louder than my mind. All the time that has gone to waste, all the money spent. The tears cried, the long deep breathes. The amount of hours, days, years my heart yearned for you only to be blindsided.
By Merjaunie Lenaabout a month ago in Poets
A couple of lovers
We were never supposed to get together in the first place, we were never supposed to actually start talking at all. An innocent joke turned into something more beautiful than i could imagine. From the late nights making eachother laugh, to the car rides, views, beaches, and everything in between made me fall in love with who you are as a person, and i loved the way you made me feel. You made me feel seen, beautiful, and special inside and out. It was something so innocent, and its probably the best love i have ever experienced.
By Merjaunie Lena2 years ago in Confessions
Mindful Tricks
We all go through some emotional trauma at some point in our lives, emotinal, physical mental etc. It could be from a heartbreak, losing a loved one, or even just from being in a toxic relationship with somebody. We all deal with it one way or another, and eventually that feeling you once felt that was so gut wrenching will no longer cease to exist, but it takes time to completely heal from it. Time, patience with yourself and even your own mind, because if not healed properly your mind will still bring up those certain moments in your life, and still have an affect on you.
By Merjaunie Lena2 years ago in Motivation
Heres a happier post
Since I've had some time to myself and finding out who I am, and my worth, and how much of a great person I am, I've become so much happier within myself its crazy. My alone time I've had really made me realize how selfish I was being in not putting myself first or my feelings. I've had so much time to reflect on the past, and heal mentally and emotionally from everything and overcome so much. It was a very long journey to get where i am today, but i am so proud of myself.
By Merjaunie Lena2 years ago in Confessions
My Writing
I know most of my writing is sad or depressing or probably isn't the happiest most of the time. I know it's not perfect, I have mistakes, and sometimesI'll put a comma where it probably shouldnt go. I write about the same things, and or same emotions or feelings, but that's only because that's all I've ever know for most of my life. My writing is a reflection of myself, who I was, and who I am becoming. So yeah it may not be perfectly written, but It's my writing, and that how I am, I'm perfectly imperfect.
By Merjaunie Lena2 years ago in Confessions
Alone
Call me crazy or weird or whatever it is you want to say, but if I'm being honest lately I like to be alone. Sometimes just sitting with my own company is just so peaceful to me. I could be reading, writing, listening to my music, or watching some videos on youtube, and I will be perfectly content. I've learned to love being alone away from people, and negative energy that come with some people not all but most. I've learned that if it doesnt bring me happiness or is messing with my peace I will not tolerate it. Thus being alone bring me more joy than going out to a party or to anything really. People think that because I'm always alone that I am depressed or sad when it's not even that at all. I'm just more at peace with it, and I've learned to love it so much that I just prefer it. No one can mess with my peace or my emotions, and I don't have to deal with anyone. As harsh as that sounds it's not meant that way believe me. I just don't need to be surrounded by hundreds or people to make me happy or to being going out constantly, because if I'm being honest I can only stand being around so many people for so long, and then I start getting irritated and want to go home. Don't take it personal I just cherish my own company more than anything now.
By Merjaunie Lena2 years ago in Journal