Create a Certain Kind of Beautiful

I've never really understood how to start writing something like this, something that the whole world could potentially see. It's a thought I'd never really had, not until this moment of me actually putting all my thoughts out there.

I love music. I know people say that all the time as a "brush off" comment when someone asks what you're interested in. I haven't met a person that hasn't mentioned music when being asked that question. Everyone says "oh yeah I like music," but to me? Music is SO much more than an interest or a hobby. It's all I've ever known from the youngest age I can remember and it's all I ever intend on knowing as a career in the future. All my friends have said, "the music industry is too tough, you better have a back up plan for a job" and I've always ignored those throw away comments because honestly, I don't know anything else well enough. I'd be lying if I said I'm good at a job if it didn't involve music, unless there's music involved, I'll be no good to anyone.

So if you haven't gathered by now, I'm a big fan of music, from old school punk rock to modern grime and R&B. There's no genre I favour more than the other because they're all so unique in their retrospective ways and I just like to rant about that I guess. Music is in fact the only thing I can talk about for hours on end if you give me a specific subject, whether it's how a concert made me feel in just one moment or how a vinyl record has affected my whole perception on the world. Music has shaped me into the woman I am today and I don't know where I would be right now if I didn't have such a strong bond with it.

I study music at university (and by now you'll have realised I'm also British...the system goes school, college and then university here. It's a lot of education but it's worth it...I think.) Anyway, because I'm surrounded by music all the time, I fall in love with it so much more each day. Every morning when I'm doing my makeup, I'll be listening to vinyl, then I'm on the bus listening to my playlists containing pretty much every possible genre you can think of. Then I get to work with like-minded singers and musicians everyday and create some incredible pieces of art and I'm so proud to call them my friends/musical associates. Repeating that cycle everyday is such a blessing because there was a time in my life where I didn't get to do that and that feels literally like a lifetime ago. I'm so glad to be where I'm standing right now.

I think one of the best parts about what I do is how when I wake up in the morning, whatever vinyl I put on to get ready reflects my mood for the rest of the day. Then I get to go and put that mood to good use and everything around me. The music and the musical people inspire me to be a better person everyday, even if I'm in an awful mood or have a tough day, I know I have some amazing things to fall back on and the purity and sincerity of it all makes it so much more...beautiful.

My life lesson here for anyone whose reading this is: if you have a true love for something then don't let it pass you by, chase it and grab it with both hands and make the most of it. Even if people don't approve or they make snide comments like, "you're never gonna make it" or "it's too tough." Ignore that and embrace that negativity and put it to use. Whether you're a musician or an artist or some form of creator, make that negativity your positive muse and with the right motivation and the right soundtrack, you'll make your mark on this world. And it'll be so...beautiful.