Fallen Rock Star

I grew up out in the country. We didn't have a farm but I loved that country home. My dream is to one day be financially free with a house in the country.

I want the rock star life with a rocker wife. I'm now in my 30s and I have no regrets because the life lessons I've learned have made me who I am today. Sometimes I wish I could go back to those moments when the picture I was painting was coming to life but then I wouldn't have the mind I have now. If everything is handed to someone on a silver platter they just don't have the down to earth understanding that I have now.

I remember my first time listening to the album Bat Out of Hell by Meatloaf. Something about it intrigued me. I didn't understand what it was all about until I grew up. It was all about that one love that drives you so crazy that you can't see yourself without it.

My parents kept me sheltered and my dad mostly listened to country music. I always found country music boring. My mother hated it because to her, it was always about cheating hearts and loneliness. I love the old westerns, though, especially now that I understand why cowboys are always lonely, even with someone they love. It's because we're never satisfied or we don't see the world the way town or city folk do.

I wrote my first lyric when I was very young and it was about a witch. Well, that witch haunted me my whole life. One day I had a dream that I was singing with an awesome band in front of a crowd. It sounded great and the crowd was going wild. All of a sudden, I saw the mosh pit separating to form a line in the center of the floor as that pesky witch walked up in front of center stage. She used telekinesis to lift me off the stage up in the air then slam me on the mosh pit floor.

The truth is that no sorcerer or witch can stop me from walking my own path in life. I foresaw the world and the vicious cycles of mankind. We can become what we most fear in order to learn from the experience of it; in order to become older and wiser being fearless. The absence of fear is love.

When I was 14 years old, I went to a party and I heard this drummer playing along to Metallica in the background. I immediately walked into the living room and gazed over at him while he was playing. There were metal posters on the walls and I felt like I was in heaven.

Then one day when I was 15, I wrote three albums worth of lyrics and I would sing them in my room and to my girlfriend. There were quite a few girls interested in me but I honestly didn't care because I loved my girl. I would write phrases in school and put together lyrics in a binder at home that I kept in my closet. One day I came home from school and they were gone, my whole world crushed and I went into shock. I ended it with my girl and stayed single all my life. Nowhere in my story says I ever gave up.

I started writing again because my soulmate told me to make a masterpiece. I've remastered everything and all I need is a band. Not just any band, a creative team of great musicians with great chemistry. I've learned to lighten up a little and do it my own way. Therefore I've decided to get a guitar and get lessons to get passed this guitar hump I'm in. I want to do my own thing now. Let a band come to me when the time is right.